sometimes, it is just a very bad feeling. you know the way how things are going, how things will never ever turn your way, yet you still harbour a lil chance, hoping that it might actually work out someday. i have to admit, even though it has never affected me, but seeing how things are at the moment still does some degree of damage. and worst thing is, it's a constant bombardment kind of thingy. i know whats going on, but i never seem to be bothered in the least in front of you. sometimes i can't get to sleep, but who knows anyway? sorry maybe i should correct that; who cares anyway? okay there are people who care but sometimes, only certain people make you feel better. okay heck don't really wanna talk about this.
on a lighter note, had training @ sn yesterday. had to really agree that my soccer deproved alot since going into poly life. still, training was awesome, and with the sweettalk moment + crapping + the regular jokes still makes everything tick. how i wish times were back then when we still called chris "joseph"..
